Self-Reflection

I don't know where to begin…hm, yes, first I wish to say Stickman why you publish and comment on certain articles that should be not published? This lower the quality on Reader's Submissions? some things should just be ignored?… Anyway,
things start to happen now this moment in my life, strange events… that I try figure out. (even the best shrink in the world couldn't help me!) 😉 I cannot be totally moral correct and have a logical explanation of everything. Relate my
whole life-story and explain the cause-effect of things? skip that. (I gone through all levels of hell-on- earth and a short trip to heaven and back…) But there was a reason, there was a cause for that! (I had my share.) But then you reach a
certain point in your life you cannot blame "bad-luck" or "bad karma" etc anymore, you have to start anew from zero. a.k.a Saturnic Death (this happen at age 30, Saturn orbit 30yrs.) 😉 See the cause-effect more clear of your
strange 'life-happenings'…and become more responsible for your actions? I developed some bad-habits its hard break free from, also the cause of my failed relationships maybe lay my character: bad temper and bad social skills? of course
also my naive belief about 'love' (which was the reason I travel to Thailand) and inexperience of relationships with Thai-women. This seems to be "logical" maybe, I haven't figured it all out yet. Its total chaos and a
mess! All the relationships and events…I was at the point of madness and leave Thailand forever… But then I came to my senses and decided stay and just take a BREAK. Because the cause lies within myself! No matter where I am located I cannot
escape from myself. I was an outcast from my own culture/society even from beginning. Maybe that's why I enjoy Thailand? (being treated like a dog, with no respect, old news!) 😉 Three or four weeks I've been alone now…I just HAD
to. couldn't take it no more. This has been a very good period for me, *I got time to think* WOW!…reflect about these events. I won't let you indulge in all my negative experience, "strange and absurd events" and I won't
try to be 'morally correct' about it. Because will sure do it again! But perhaps in another way. Everybody has their own story, but we understand if the cause lay in ourselves or in Others??…Projecting morals, ignorance and misconception
about why, and how this and this happen? Also explain how these should be solved! *great*… We are strangers here in Asia. Even strangers to ourselves? …But its nice anyway, you get another perspective on things. To finish this, I say in *any*
relationship its impossible 'not get involved' with the girls or affected at some deeper level. It always do. That could mean we develop some attitude (same as them?) Or we may become affected emotionally&mentally. For me, *love*
is a sacred thing. Its the reason for my existence, my motivation, my highest dream and goal…not that I have any morals about it…But to earn a Thai-woman's love and respect, you have to be a *Real Man* (That we have no-idea about in western
culture). The more you spoil her with money, gifts, service etc the LESS will she respect and love you. And Thai-girls are easy? Wake up? Try to keep her in a working long-term relationship with honest communication and friendship?

Random Quotes:

"You love me?! Give me money!" (old GF scream before I broke up with her)

"No Talk" (Only response I got one time from arguing with a Thai-girl)… lol

"You talk too much" (Another response from Thai-girl)

"Shall we call the police?" (Bar-girl say when walking away with my money)

"Talk to somebody that cares" (Thai-man)

"If you could have anything in the world, what would you choose? -Money" (Thai-girl reply from my question)

“He was not the Model Boy of the village. He knew the model boy very well though–and loathed him,” (unknown)

"with each journey away from classical society he is able to venture further into his own mind in order to reach a mental maturity not possible through common practices amongst the community." -(unknown)

Karma (Sanskrit: कर्म) kárman- "act, action, performance" Pali: kamma) in Indian religions is the concept of "action" or "deed", understood as that which causes the entire cycle of
cause and effect (i.e., the cycle called saṃsāra) originating in ancient India and treated in Hindu, Jain, Sikh and Buddhist philosophies.

'Karma' is an Eastern religious concept in contradistinction to 'faith' espoused by Abrahamic religions (Judaism, Christianity, and Islam), which view all human dramas as the will of God as opposed to present – and past
– life actions. In theistic schools of Hinduism, humans have free will to choose good or evil and suffer the consequences, which require the will of God to implement karma's consequences, unlike Buddhism or Jainism which do not accord any
role to a supreme God or gods. In Eastern beliefs, the karmic effects of all deeds are viewed as actively shaping past, present, and future experiences. The results or 'fruits' of actions are called karma-phala.

In Buddhism, karma (Pāli kamma) is strictly distinguished from vipāka, meaning "fruit" or "result". Karma is categorized within the group or groups of cause (Pāli hetu) in the chain of cause and effect,
where it comprises the elements of "volitional activities" (Pali sankhara) and "action" (Pali bhava). Any action is understood as creating "seeds" in the mind that will sprout into the appropriate result (Pāli
vipaka) when met with the right conditions. Most types of karmas, with good or bad results, will keep one within the wheel of samsāra, while others will liberate one to nirvanaāna.

Buddhism links karma directly to the motives behind an action. Motivation usually makes the difference between "good" and "bad" actions, but included in the motivation is also the aspect of ignorance such that a well-intended
action from an ignorant mind can subsequently be interpreted as a "bad" action in the sense that it creates unpleasant results for the "actor".